spreading some love ^__~

spreading some love..

Aug 5, 2009

dear diary

"it was just a simple request and yet you could not do it. how can i weigh things when you ask too much and give a little too less? how can we call it fair when you can't even give a little while i can give too much?"
--from the diary of a whimpy kid

wow galing naman ng kid! tsktsk ang buhay ay sadyang ganyan.suliranin di mapigilan. itanim mo lng sa iyong puso, kaya mo yaaaaan! hihi.

life is a choice. you can choose fair or you can choose big. im choosing fair! wahahahahahahaha out nagma-mindset! :P

Aug 1, 2009

burn out

is being tested emotionally

is not going to fight back just yet

is giving herself a break

is tired of too much thinking

is not being rational until she can be...

is going to pen down her thoughts whenever she can..but not now..not yet

Jul 30, 2009

yayay...

aaaaaaaaaahhhhhhhhhhhhhh EMOTIONAL STRESS! TT_____________TT

if there's too much of these in life, who would want to live!?! anti-depressants, where are yousssssssssssss??????

strike two for this year TT____TT i just hope these would all make me become better..and not worse. sana next yr naman ung next :'(



*kung ang lahat ay may katapusan, itong paglalakbay ay makakarating din sa paroroonan...

Jul 26, 2009

some thoughts

It's a sad reality how people sometimes think less of others. It's the price others have to pay for believing that people won't do that to them. But given the capacity and not doing so is an entirely different thing. It's a noble thing to do.


hahaay.. i didn't know men are worst than i thought.

Jul 19, 2009

finally! i found peace of mind in watching gossip girl ^___^ weird but i couldn't care less.this is all i need.



* the sun will come out tomorrow..like your boyfriend did today - Gossip girl to jenny, after everyone found out her bf is gay.


**ahh di ko maisip na masisira na blog ko sa ads! cge lng..all for the money. i'll be transferring to a new site soon.

because i can't sleep

i've been wondering why i stopped counting how long i've been at work. the post i had was my 11th month at work. i just had my 15th so that's four posts behind.

is it because i'm enjoying what i do now? is it because i'm already counting how many days left before i leave work? or is it because my mind is too preoccupied of something else?

i've been wanting to leave work. but i can't leave just like that. i don't want to leave just because of some lame reasons i cannot handle. i am "feeling"things.i should be rational and not emotional dammit! i should see things like adults do.

HAPPY 15TH dessie!


**titingnan ko kung pwde ako mgkapera sa blog na 'to.. madudumihan na ang blog ko huhuhu cge lng..all for the money and boredom.. ill just delete everything later..

wishing just the same

i wish i can wish that i won't be wishing for friends. that i can watch movies alone, go home alone, go to the mall alone, travel alone, with nothing else to mind but myself.

i wish i won't be waiting for replies. that i can change my numbers every time, that i won't be calling people whenever they don't reply, that i can switch off my phone whenever i want.

i wish i know how to forget people. that if they don't talk to me for some time, i'll easily forget them.

i wish i won't ever feel like i'm being taken for granted. that if they need me, i'll be right there and if they don't i'll disappear just like that.

i wish i don't value relationships that much. that i won't mind if you're my friend now and tomorrow you'll be a totally different person. that i won't mind when people just come and go.

i wish i don't have friends na nang-iiwan sa ere. yung they'll be there whenever they don't have anyone elso to go with, but if they'll find someone else, they wouldn't mind who you'll be with, what would you do..

i wish i'm not wishing for constant friends. that i can be with just anyone who can be there for me.

i wish i can wish that i am a loner. that i won't want to be around people but myself.


...JUST BECAUSE I WANTED SOOOOOOO BADLY TO WATCH HALF-BLOOD PRINCE ON THE FIRST WEEK!!!! and i don't want to watch it alone..because it would be a lot more fun if i watch it with friends. THAT FRIGGING HARRY POTTER THAT'S NOTHING MORE THAN JUST CRAP! i've been wallowing all day for just that!?!! it was worst than i expected! hahaaay life is harsh TT____TT

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Apr 25, 2009

A-YEAR-AFTER.. the prequel

fyi, a-year-after celebrates my 1 year @work. no big deal ^____^

ok, this is supposed to be posted few weeks back. april 8 to be exact. but for one obvious reason, i was in manila for a week, i wasn't able to. so i should have done this when i arrived but i was sick for a week.not to mention i was too lazy make a post.

yesterday was a BIG day.i was in a fist fight! haha joke! it was one of those days when all my guards are down and suddenly i breakdown. it was not the ordinary though coz i confronted someone which i don't normally do.and it wasn't the ordinary because the tears already started to flow while i was still in the jeepney.but i managed to go to the mall and watched slumdog millionaire (yeah! it's one great movie! though i wasn't paying much attention three-fourths of the movie)and finally managed to settle things out before going home.

it was one big day i will never forget. thanks to the people who were a part of it. and who weren't.

Mar 29, 2009

movie marathon

The sun itself sees not till heaven clears

i've watch Prince and Me nth times already and i can't believe i'm watching it again for several times tonight! iv'e been watching this since college hahaha! but im in denial that it is by far my favorite feel-good movie. nah luke mably just looks oh-so-good in this movie hehehe really fit for a real-life prince. i can't seem to know why i keep watching this movie. and there's this soundtrack that i like. a really nice song. not that i can relate :P

here, check it out

I hope that I don't fall in love with you - hootie and the blowfish (originally by tom waits)



Well I hope that I don't fall in love with you
'Cause falling in love just makes me blue,
Well the music plays and you display your heart for me to see,
I had a beer and now I hear you calling out for me
And I hope that I don't fall in love with you.

......

I can see that you are lonesome just like me,
And it being late, you'd like some some company,
Well I turn around to look at you, and you look back at me,
The guy you're with has up and split, the chair next to you's free,
And I hope that you don't fall in love with me.

Mar 8, 2009

11th

11th month @ work.. waaaaaaaaaaaaaaw that was fast! 1 month more and i'll fulfill my promise to stay for at least a year.

the previous weeks were miserable (not work-related though). i am being tested emotionally. i failed, i cried, i stumbled and fall..and if there's one thing i learned, that is, giving your trust would also mean giving them the power to hurt you, and giving your trust doesn't mean earning their trust as well.


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yesterday, i watched "shopaholic". it was fun. it's about a woman who shops to make herself feel better. shopping gives her a different kind of excitement that she tends to forget about her worries and when she's done shopping, she would feel down again and that would make her want to shop more.

yesterday, i also went to church, which, in other words, means that my thoughts are too deep for me to comprehend that i had to go to church to have peace of mind for a while and reconsider my thoughts afterwards.

Feb 20, 2009

self-talk

lord, isa2x lng po! wag naman po sabay2x TT_____TT break it to me gently hehehehe mejo slow learner po kasi ako plus stubborn pa!

aaaahhhhhhhh ik, mag online ka naaaaaaaaaah!


I know it hurts
For what it's worth
It can only get better

Feb 8, 2009

10th

10 months @ work...and counting..cheers! to hopefully, another 10 months more! ^___^

Feb 3, 2009

sobrang saya ng araw ko ***** grabeh! naiinis ako sa sobrang saya! hahaha meron ba nun? naiinis sa sobrang saya? loko ka talaga dessiemae! pano kasi me mga naiinis na ata sa mukha ko. sa sobrang inis, di na ata sila makapagsalita.. (bka nman stunning ang tawag dyan..hindi inis! stunning presence nyahaha! parang dyosa)

stunning: adj, Causing or capable of causing emotional shock or loss of consciousness; Of a strikingly attractive appearance.

ooohhhhh biruin mo, causing emotional shock daw oh! loss of consciousness di daw! (aba magtago ka na dessiemae! lagot ka! ) masyado na bang maganda?? di na keri ng powers nyo? sabihin nyo lng, papalitan ko nung kay betty..pwde rin kay nikolas! pero pano nga nila sasabihin kng di na nila kaya magsalita?? (ano barrrnnnn mag isip ka nga) oo nga nman noh?? pano ba un? kelan pa kaya nila makayanan magsalita?? bka nman me mga araw na di ka stunning..naku iilang araw lng un.. hahaay..kung alam ko lng na ganito kahirap ang buhay ng me stunning presence, aba, kebz kung mahirap! kakayanin ko! hahahahaha *nabuang nah..bow!

me nasagap pa akong balita kanina..me kinasal, me nabuntis, me naghiwalay..saya! talagang makulay ang buhay! pero ako, ayoko ng sobrang kulay..sobra pa sa stunning aabutin ko nyan. gusto ko isang kulay lng. pwedeng pink, pwde rin blue. wag lang puti..chaka black..kasi di naman kulay un (aba beri good! naalala pa ang hum 2 lesson nila!)..ung kinasal, kita ko ang peechurs! wawww ibang klase! parang kasal talaga! totoong totoong totoo talaga! (hahaha!) pero di ako invited eh. bawal daw stunning dun..bka di pa matuloy ang kasal (LOLLL!). ung nabuntis, di ko pa kilala. chismis lng un. ung mga lokong walang magawa, sa wakas, me nagawa na rin! (congrats!) gumawa ng chismis! (congrats ulit! big hit eh). ung naghiwalay, malungkot. hahaha! (me malungkot bang nakatawa???)...talagang napakakulay! ako, stunning parin, walang pinagbago hahahah!

at natawa daw ako dito! (haba pa ng nick ng isa hahaha!)

pinkie: sissy, u there?
pinkie: its me. pinkie
... So I guess I c diz 's d end no longer a luver bt only a fren n yes I can say, dt m alrite bt still onto u m holdin tight....: yh onee
... So I guess I c diz 's d end no longer a luver bt only a fren n yes I can say, dt m alrite bt still onto u m holdin tight....: srry i was watching some drama
pinkie: oohhh what drama is that?
... So I guess I c diz 's d end no longer a luver bt only a fren n yes I can say, dt m alrite bt still onto u m holdin tight....: boys be4 flower
pinkie: i see..korean??
... So I guess I c diz 's d end no longer a luver bt only a fren n yes I can say, dt m alrite bt still onto u m holdin tight....: yh it's gud
pinkie: yh..ill watch that when i have time
pinkie: ******
... So I guess I c diz 's d end no longer a luver bt only a fren n yes I can say, dt m alrite bt still onto u m holdin tight....: woa
... So I guess I c diz 's d end no longer a luver bt only a fren n yes I can say, dt m alrite bt still onto u m holdin tight....: i wanna c it
pinkie: hahaha bt dont get frustrated, k?
pinkie: he's not brad pitt hahahaa
... So I guess I c diz 's d end no longer a luver bt only a fren n yes I can say, dt m alrite bt still onto u m holdin tight....: y?
... So I guess I c diz 's d end no longer a luver bt only a fren n yes I can say, dt m alrite bt still onto u m holdin tight....: haha
... So I guess I c diz 's d end no longer a luver bt only a fren n yes I can say, dt m alrite bt still onto u m holdin tight....: nw..i wanna c onee
pinkie: mybe ull think he's brad pitt or some sort
pinkie: hahaha
... So I guess I c diz 's d end no longer a luver bt only a fren n yes I can say, dt m alrite bt still onto u m holdin tight....: haha
pinkie:*******
.........
... So I guess I c diz 's d end no longer a luver bt only a fren n yes I can say, dt m alrite bt still onto u m holdin tight....: which 1 iz it onee
... So I guess I c diz 's d end no longer a luver bt only a fren n yes I can say, dt m alrite bt still onto u m holdin tight....: omo..jus as i thought
... So I guess I c diz 's d end no longer a luver bt only a fren n yes I can say, dt m alrite bt still onto u m holdin tight....: woa..he'z so cute
... So I guess I c diz 's d end no longer a luver bt only a fren n yes I can say, dt m alrite bt still onto u m holdin tight....: gud choice onee
pinkie: *****
pinkie: ahahaha
... So I guess I c diz 's d end no longer a luver bt only a fren n yes I can say, dt m alrite bt still onto u m holdin tight....: omo..ma broda in law iz pretty hansome
... So I guess I c diz 's d end no longer a luver bt only a fren n yes I can say, dt m alrite bt still onto u m holdin tight....: make him urs
pinkie: HAHAHAHAHAHAHA
pinkie:just as u thot?
pinkie: really?
... So I guess I c diz 's d end no longer a luver bt only a fren n yes I can say, dt m alrite bt still onto u m holdin tight....: yh
... So I guess I c diz 's d end no longer a luver bt only a fren n yes I can say, dt m alrite bt still onto u m holdin tight....: omo bt didn't noe he wud cut ma xpectation
pinkie: hahaha i told u..he's not brad pitt
... So I guess I c diz 's d end no longer a luver bt only a fren n yes I can say, dt m alrite bt still onto u m holdin tight....: no i mn
... So I guess I c diz 's d end no longer a luver bt only a fren n yes I can say, dt m alrite bt still onto u m holdin tight....: he iz more gud den i imagined
... So I guess I c diz 's d end no longer a luver bt only a fren n yes I can say, dt m alrite bt still onto u m holdin tight....: haha
... So I guess I c diz 's d end no longer a luver bt only a fren n yes I can say, dt m alrite bt still onto u m holdin tight....: n brad pit ain't dt great
... So I guess I c diz 's d end no longer a luver bt only a fren n yes I can say, dt m alrite bt still onto u m holdin tight....: onee..
pinkie:haha mybe ur thinking hs worse
... So I guess I c diz 's d end no longer a luver bt only a fren n yes I can say, dt m alrite bt still onto u m holdin tight....: no
... So I guess I c diz 's d end no longer a luver bt only a fren n yes I can say, dt m alrite bt still onto u m holdin tight....: i told u he'z cute n hanzome
... So I guess I c diz 's d end no longer a luver bt only a fren n yes I can say, dt m alrite bt still onto u m holdin tight....: do u tnk i lie
... So I guess I c diz 's d end no longer a luver bt only a fren n yes I can say, dt m alrite bt still onto u m holdin tight....: u tnk as well dun u
pinkie: well i think he's cute
pinkie: hahahaha
... So I guess I c diz 's d end no longer a luver bt only a fren n yes I can say, dt m alrite bt still onto u m holdin tight....: yup
... So I guess I c diz 's d end no longer a luver bt only a fren n yes I can say, dt m alrite bt still onto u m holdin tight....: onee..m off 4r lunch k?
... So I guess I c diz 's d end no longer a luver bt only a fren n yes I can say, dt m alrite bt still onto u m holdin tight....: cya..lata

Feb 1, 2009

sk8ter boi

ME murdering SK8R BOI by AVRIL LAVIGNE (recorded via singsnap)

AS REQUESTED BY BOTZ

para daw kay BOY-P
na hindi naman mukhang sk8r boi..
mukhang malinis nman tingnan.
oh bka nman mukha lng ang malinis!? hehehe :P
pero sino ba si BOY-P????? hhhmmmmm





*** i will mishooo botz (asuuuuuuuuuus mabait lng ako ngayon kaya wag kang magsaya!!! hahaha)

Jan 26, 2009

sing galing!

here's how i would sound in a duet... just so you know..hehehe

ME and KUYA singing CRAZY FOR YOU by MADONNA (recorded separately via singsnap. that's why you'll notice sometimes it's not sync)





***amishoooo kuya! ^____^

shoemaker

just few weeks ago, i bought another pair of high-heeled shoes. it's not new to me because i buy a new pair at least once a month. hhmmm maybe you're thinking i am a huge fan of shoes and all i do is collect all sorts of styles..hahaha! how i wish i can do that! but no, i don't have that much money to spare!

my mom always tells me that i walk like a bulldozer or some sort and that's the main reason why i need a new pair of shoes every month hihi. i dunno if im just always unlucky to buy the low-resistant-to-a-bulldozer-feet kind of shoes LOLLLLLLLLLL

buying a new pair of shoes is not as easy as you think it is. well, not for me! i spend days just finding the right kind of shoes. im always having a hard time finding the right fitting and sizing. different brands of shoes have different fitting. i also consider the color of the shoes. it should match my office outfit. i most of the time consult buying tips and guides just to get the right kind of shoes that i want. good thing i was able to buy a new one.. a black normal-heeled shoes that just fits my kind of style

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Jan 11, 2009

moments

last night, i had some intimate moments with alcohol LOLLLLLL

for the first time, it made my world spinning literally, i vomitted mcflurry + fried chicken + alcohol a few times and it made me want some more! MOOOOOOOOOOOOOOORE! HAHAHAHA! :P


CHEERS TO MORE REAL REAL-WORLD EXPERIENCES! ^____^


sorry i was supposed to stay sober for 2009 hihi

Jan 10, 2009

for everyone

**requests are accepted..just leave a comment =)

Realize - John Nathaniel version
Download: MF


The Middle - Jimmy Eat World
Download: MF

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Jan 9, 2009

9th

oohhhh lala! time flies so fast! just a month ago, i was whining about how my eighth month went..now im writing about my 9th wheeeeew!

i was supposed to post this yesterday but i was so exhausted physically and emotionally that i didnt have much strength to do so.

yesterday was a milestone. one of my crazy friends just got married! and surprisingly, i was informed just 2 days before yesterday! AND we were told, or should i say REQUIRED to wear a dress that has the same color as her motif purple plum chuchu whatever!

well, everything turned out just fine..and my friend seems happy, though there were a few guysssss who were not so happy with the oh-so-sudden event :)

now, im contemplating if i should take the Masters in Information Systems at UP Open University hhmmm...that would mean lesser laag time hahaha LOLLLL such a hard decision!

Jan 1, 2009

new year's resolution

my new year's resolution would be:

talk less
eat less
drink less
spend less


listen more
exercise more
save more
explore more
express more
open up more
learn more


hehe mejo mahirap noh? pero cge lng.. ill try.. ^___^

before the dawn breaks and another day will start, let me thank the Lord because the previous year has been one of the greatest and one of the most colorful years of my life!

thank you also for the people who have been part of my 2008!

may this year be as colorful if not more colorful than the previous one.

KAMPAIIIIII~!!! to a more confident, more outspoken, more God-fearing, more responsible ME!


WELCOME 2009!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! ^__________________^

Dec 8, 2008

eight

today is my 8th month @work wheeeee! that's double my month of stay from my previous work! wheeeee so this could be a sign! this must be! a sign of what? i dunno =)

well, i am not burned out from work today..just like many of those days. these are the things i did today:

1. early in the morning, i was "lecturing" these two people how i REALLY hate being teased. yes that's right! I HATE BEING TEASED! it seems they enjoy seeing me mad and irritated that they can't seem to stop. which made me moooooooore irritated!

2. checked on some sales data that are not yet posted

3. discussed purchase order-related concerns

4. jabber yoniepot (which i do everyday), and the rest

5. YM kuya, vivian, rej

6. read justine's blog

7. browse news sites, mails, and other nonsense internet stuffs

8. was contemplating on what needs to be done (but unfortunately wasn't able to figure out even until the day ended grrrrr slacking off is never easy!)


see? i didn't do much on my eighth month which i don't know if it's a good thing or not.
ooooohhhh i still can't get over with my bad mood! i wonder what happened to the sanguine in me. i dont want to be melancholic =(

Nov 27, 2008

let go

ok this is very timely. i've been wanting to write about a blog entry ate hannah made in her multiply account. it's about letting go. the message is very simple. let go of people who just want to go... because you cannot make everyone stay. that's a reality and you have to accept it.

anyway, here it goes.. (i had to repost it because ate hannah made the blog private hehe)



Let it go for 2008.


By T. D. Jakes

There are people who can walk away from you.

And hear me when I tell you this! When people can walk away from you: let them walk. I don't want you to try to talk another person into staying with you, loving you, calling you, caring about you, coming to see you, staying attached to you.. I mean hang up the phone.

When people can walk away from you let them walk. Your destiny is never tied to anybody that left.

The bible said that, they came out from us that it might be made manifest that they were not for us. For had they been of us, no doubt they would have continued with us. [1 John 2:19]

People leave you because they are not joined to you. And if they are not joined to you, you can't make them stay.

Let them go!

And it doesn't mean that they are a bad person, it just means that their part in the story is over. And you've got to know when people's part in your story is over so that you don't keep trying to raise the dead.
You've got to know when it's dead.

You've got to know when it's over. Let me tell you something. I've got the gift of good-bye. It's the tenth spiritual gift, I believe in good-bye. It's not that I'm hateful, it's that I'm faithful, and I know whatever God means for me to have He'll give it to me. And if it takes too much sweat I don't need it. Stop begging people to stay.

Let them go!!

If you are holding on to something that doesn't belong to you and was never intended for your life, then you need to......

LET IT GO!!!

If you are holding on to past hurts and pains ......

LET IT GO!!!

If someone can't treat you right, love you back, and see your worth......

LET IT GO!!!

If someone has angered you...

LET IT GO!!!

If you are holding on to some thoughts of evil and revenge......

LET IT GO!!!

If you are involved in a wrong relationship or addiction......

LET IT GO!!!

If you are holding on to a job that no longer meets your needs or talents

LET IT GO!!!

If you have a bad attitude.......

LET IT GO!!!

If you keep judging others to make yourself feel better......

LET IT GO!!!

If you're stuck in the past and God is trying to take you to a new level in Him.........

LET IT GO!!!

If you are struggling with the healing of a broken relationship.......

LET IT GO!!!

If you keep trying to help someone who won't even try to help themselves......

LET IT GO!!!

If you're feeling depressed and stressed ..........

LET IT GO!!!

If there is a particular situation that you are so used to handling yourself and God is saying "take your hands off of it," then you need to......

LET IT GO!!!

Let the past be the past. Forget the former things. GOD is doing a new thing for 2008!!!


LET IT GO!!!

Get Right or Get Left .. think about it, and then...

LET IT GO!!!

"The Battle is the Lord's!"

Stop and think and appreciate God's power in your life, for doing what you know is pleasing to Him.

"Yes, I love my God. He is my fountain of Life and My Savior.
He Keeps me going day and night. Without Him, I am no one. But with Him, I can do everything, Christ is my strength."


God loves you and watches over you everyday.


"All I have seen, has taught me to trust God for all I haven't seen."--Ralph Waldo Emerson


see, there's no point in running after people who make you sad, who take you for granted, of people who want to leave.. because if they're really meant to stay, they will. there's no point in being hateful. no point in sulking, no point in getting mad, really. just let go and move on ^___^

Nov 20, 2008

bored

my first post, i guess, all the way from the office hehehe! though we have the luxury of having internet connection, i don't usually update blogs when im at work (char! except nung binasa nila blog ko at kelangan kong maglinis ng posts hahaha :P )

im bored and sleepy but i have lots of things to do. plus other people are too preoccupied to listen so i thought, ill just blab all i want here hehe. sa bisaya pa, wala koy kastorya mao na bored (ambot unsa na sa bisaya hahaha) ug katulugon ko.

lalala it's time! back to work ^___^ but i took a pic of our christmas tree and ill post it sometime later. it's taaaaaaaaaaaall and they hung our pictures in it hihi. really nice!

Nov 17, 2008

not on blog-leave anymore! =)

MY DESIGN SKILLS ARE PRETTY MUCH LAME! arrrrggggh!

i was supposed to make a new banner for this blog..well i actually did. my first banner ever from photoshop. SO DON'T BLAME ME IF IT LOOKS errrrr JUST LIKE THAT!

buti nakarating na si kuya ng new york wheeee grabe naman ung 24-hr flight pamatay! huhu nakakamiss...but i've learned about this verse 1 JOHN 2:19 very helpful ^____^

gotta go sleep!

Oct 26, 2008

my quite messy bag

ella did this..so i will too hahaha! inggitera??



this is my bag ^____^




and these are the things inside my bag
(L to R, top to bottom)

1. doraemon comic book i bought from malaysia (my anti-depressant book ^__^ )
2. some trash w/ mcdo discount coupons (of course my bag will not be complete without some trash! haha)
3. green umbrella (oohhhh why is it there? i usually leave it in the office coz it's too heavy for my bag hihi)
4. brown comb that my mom's co-teacher gave to her as a gift but she gave it to me instead
5. pouch with a :P button pin for my two phones (one for smart and the other for globe or sun)
6. isopropyl alcohol
7. body shop white musk lotion
8. nivea lip balm
9. watson's dental floss
10. addidas cologne for women
11. book marker
12. pink pen (from mam mapet)
13. headphone
14. wallet
15. coin purse
16. hankerchief
17. some medicines (buscopan, paracetamol...)
18. extra sanitary napkin, panty liner and tissue paper
19. mentos, snow bear and cloud nine candies
20. compact face power
21. 1GB flash disk
22. my other phone (i used the other one for taking this pic)
23. company id
24. data cable (so i can connect my phone to the pc)
25. house keys


**i don't have makeup kits/beauty kits/kikay kits because i don't use makeup =) i have no idea how to put it on hahaha! :P

Oct 17, 2008

booksale

as per everybody's request, im updating my blog hehe! **waves to everyone** haaay nakooowww nahiya daw ako bigla TT___TT but yah, i know blogs are meant to be read by anyone..

i bought three books from the newly opened bookstore in nccc mall, booksale. i thought it's just the name of the bookstore but i found out the books are actually on sale. i bought another two the day after. one is worth 45php and the other one is 15php. mura na, maganda pa kaya bili nah! :P



sky is falling is the second to the last novel of sydney sheldon (before are you afraid of the dark if not mistaken). sidney (yep, first name basis..mejo close kami eh hehe) is one of my favorite authors actually. i've read almost all of his novels. they say he's a wanton (adj. unrestrainedly excessive, playful, wild) writer..others say he's too pop.. but i like reading his books. (ONCE YOU POP, YOU CAN'T STOP! hahaha) once you start reading his book, you can't put it down, seriously.

intervew with the vampire by anne rice. this is my first anne rice book. i have not read any of her books yet. yonie and vivian and kuya richmond and a lot more love her books so it's worth a try. i want to read it so i can compare it with twilight, the latest addiction of some of my friends. it's a book that tells stories about vampires and falling in love and some other stuffs and soon to be a motion picture starring the one who portrayed cedric diggory in harry potter.

dear dumb diary is a very funny book and very light read. it's a diary of a student in middle school who writes her insecurities with the pretty and famous girl in their school. a stress-reliever book.



up next, im gonna take a picture of what's inside my bag..just like what ella did ^___^

Oct 12, 2008

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lately, im seeing a lot of people leave. most of them leave for good and it's a good thing, right?


i just can't help but be sad. i hate it when people go somewhere else and lose touch. it's not just leaving but forgetting maybe? i hate it when i walk alone at night on my way home. i hate it when i eat alone. i hate it when i wanna be out late at night and there's no one to go out with. i really hate doing stuffs alone! (except when im shopping for clothes coz i love doing it alone)

no. having a boyfriend is not a solution. and it never will. i guess it's more of getting used to being alone. sanayan lng siguro yan. at siguro kailangan ko ng masanay kasi lahat ng kilala ko, sanay na ata.ako nlng ang hindi. maybe it comes with maturity that you have to be alone..to be on your own. to lose touch of people you used to be with. if so, then why do people want to mature? why not stay immature and be with the people you want to be with so you don't have to be alone?

believe me, it's hard! call me immature. it's ok. at least i have the courage to say that i am. i don't do drugs, i don't smoke, i don't drink (well, occasionally, i do), i don't steal, i don't kill people. im just immature. and it's nothing compared to the problems of some people i know.

i know i can handle myself more than you think i can. i may look naive, i may look innocent, i may look vulnerable but im not. i know maturity is a process and im gonna learn that soon. you just wait and see.

i mishoo ate gail but maybe there are things we need to learn the hard way. kaya natin to. kasi matapang tayo ^___^ we're still friends no matter what..so it's ok.

darn!

ok, for the record, im planning to update this blog now.. i wanted to post a picture of the books i bought yesterday BUT i forgot my password for my photo albums TT___TT i cannot upload the photo awwwwww so sad! this happens when you don't update your blog too often and you are using different logins and you have to many online accounts to maintain.. so sad TT__TT


it's monday again tomorrow and i hate it! i hate mondays aaaaarrrrggghhhh and fridays too! could this be a sign, ella??

Aug 25, 2008

is this what they call 'life'??

i stopped fangirl-ing when i started working.

i lost contact with my online friends.

i can't read the deathly hallows because i dont have that much time to spare.

i haven't updated this blog.




im at the mall almost everyday.

i eat dinner out almost everyday.

i go home early(in the morning) almost every weekend.

i drink more often than i used to.

i spend money like there's no tomorrow.


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finally got my 100-peso bill with the UP centennial logo hihi! and i got two wheeeeeee! hehe the cashier was so nice to check all the 100-peso bills in her cash register wahehe!

Jun 29, 2008

victory like no other

the infamous manny 'pacman' pacquiao once again showed to the world how 'basagulero' filipinos are! hahahaha joke! =) but that's something to be proud of! not everyone can be a good boxer.. at least im pretty sure i wanna be a programmer and not a boxer HAHAHAHA! the only thing that's disturbing is david diaz' face that looks like a freshly cut battered meat (if there's sth like that). if that's what it takes to earn millions of dollars.. then.. uhhmm bring it on! haha noooooooooo! never in my wildest dreams!

we could not deny the fact that filipinos become united when it's pacquiao's turn to take the ring. we are his number one fans.. in boxing that is. im never a fan of his singing, acting, politics career! and this somehow reminds us that we can be victorious in our chosen fields. it's just a matter of how we get there. it's our choices actually. and how we work on those choices.

uyyyyyyy i learned something! char! hahahah! i wanted so badly to take the Master in Information System in UP Open University TT__TT but tomorrow is their deadline for second sem applications waaaaaaaaaa and i knew it just now huhuhu

Jun 11, 2008

*tears*

Jun 4, 2008




HAPPY 22ND BIRTHDAY TO MY FAVORITE DBSK MEMBER

MICKY YOOCHUN! ^___^

Jun 3, 2008

to everyone in rarejob =)

this is my letter to the rarejob personnel and CEO because i am leaving rarejob. it's sad because i really love what im doing in rarejob but i have to do this because it's needed. thank you to my students and my co-tutors for being so nice to me. you have helped me a lot. let's keep in touch ^__^ just message me in skype. i will miss you all .


Good Evening

First of all, I would like to take this chance to thank you for giving me the opportunity to help other people learn English in my own little way. It is an honor for me to be given this rare chance. I have learned a lot from this and I also got to meet very kind and interesting people. However, I have decided to temporarily leave rarejob because of conflict with my other work's schedule. I know I have canceled several lessons on short notice that might have caused problems on your part so I am really sorry. If everything will be settled, I would still want to teach in rarejob. I hope I will still be given the opportunity when that day comes.

Thank you so much

-- desi --

May 26, 2008

random post all the way from singapore =)

may 26
-- we just arrived yaaaay!

May 25, 2008

yaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaay singapore and malaysia, here i come! ^______^

this marks the start of my BORDER-LESS WORLD QUEST!

May 12, 2008

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ME! ^__^

IM WISHING FOR A BETTER ME =) i made a video of myself LOLLLLLLL seems like im starting to become a narcissist now hahaha! this is my first ever vid of myself that i made ^__^





EDIT: Thanks for all your comments =)

@nanosa and zehra - thanks soooooo much! im really glad to have sisters like you ^__^ im waiting for that day when i can meet you in person. im wishing for a friendship that can stand the test of time and distance =) but i know distance will never be a problem.. thanks to the one who made internet possible..i was given a chance to get to know you both.. awww im gonna cry TT__TT but BIG GIRLS DONT CRY ANYMORE ^______^

@ ella and dave - hehe mga pangit mo! hahahhaa joke! thanks!

@ earlpogs - yaaaaay sir salamat! ^___^ wala sa akong vocabulary ang sawi sir uy hehe abstinence ghapon dapat.. storbo lng na sa akong pag uswag char! baby jud?? baby face nlng guro hehe..

May 11, 2008

pre-birthday post

i woke up at 7, which is pretty early considering the fact that we went to the beach yesterday and i slept at 2AM. good thing internet doesnt have tantrums today. i have a severe stomach ache since yesterday morning =( but didnt stop me from going to the beach til midnight hahaha! (mapugngan pa ang baha! dili jud ang laag! :P ) i took meds but still it's painful until now awww...

yesterday was fun! we went night swimming at the pool. it's my bday tomorrow and hermie's on tuesday so it's a pre-bday celebration.

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i already asked permission to go to singapore on the 25th! yaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaay im so excited, i just cant hide it!

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still struggling with work TT__TT

Apr 26, 2008

"eventhough the guys are crazy, even though the stars are blind, if you show me real love baby i'll show you mine" - stars are blind, paris hilton -

HAHAHAHAHA i just realized what that line errr means LOLLLLLLL no wonder why she's paris hilton anyways.. it's not like she wrote the song but she sang the song and i believe the writer doesn't hold all the responsibilites in creating a song.. the singer almost always has a choice, ne?? but she's paris hilton, that's why! hahahaha dont get me wrong. i have nothing against her..i mean nothing personal =) i dont hate her on a personal level..plus i can sing that song by heart HAHAHAHAHHA IM NOT A FAN, ok??

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i went out with my newly found friends few hours ago. we just had dinner because it's our first payday. it was fun especially coz dashiel = fun! hehe i've always wanted a gay friend just like him/her.

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i gave up korean lessons =( i wanna pursue the C# lesson and be very good at it! i have a VERY thick C# book (but im not complaining, ok??) here from my workmate rico and since im used to reading novels, i'll just think it's the latest novel of sidney sheldon.. BUT im not complaining, ok? =)

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i got a call from a bank this morning telling me i passed the 5-hour back-breaking exam and i qualified for the panel interview. i wanna go to the interview and give it a try..not because i want to leave my job. i just want to experience that kind of interview since i never applied for a managerial position before HAHAHAHA!

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@DARUS - no, im not in singapore right now! haha how i wish..but no..im still here in the philippines. i never said im going there to work. i just said i will go there next month but just for a week. and yes, we are going to malaysia but not to visit you or anything! im going with my family and my mum's officemates and everyone else who have lotzza money to spend (i never paid for anything so dont ask for money from me!) so if you really wanna see me and ask me to marry you, NO WAY! hahaha you'll see me but you'll never recognize me! i'll wear a mask! hahaha!

Apr 8, 2008

day one was a mess
day two sucks...
day three i got lost (literally! haha! good thing i got there on time!)
day four aint bad..coz i met my friends after work =)
day five was great!!!! wheeeeeeeee!

...sorry i lost count ^____^



FIVE DAYS DOWN!!! how many more days to go?? i dont know what im counting for.. im counting for the day when i finally get to be at ease with my job IM SOOOOOO LOVING MY JOB NOW =)

Apr 7, 2008

re-learning korean!

i had to re-learn hangul again. i was already familiar with it before but i realized i was learning it the wrong way AND i totally forgot everything hahaha! thanks to my friend tingting who err inspired me to learn korean again. she's gone far in her korean while im still in the beginner of all the beginners lesson haha!

i used to study japanese. i had japanese class in school before and i learned the katakana and hiragana and the basic simple conversations and grammar.. but i think im giving up japanese lessons now..sorry..i find it so hard to learn kanji T___T so i decided to pursue learning korean instead.

wish me luck! hehe hopefully ill never get tired and continue learning everyday especially now that ill start my new work. anneyong! =)

Apr 6, 2008

DBSK

DOWNLOAD BEAUTIFUL YOU Preview.mp3

the video is weird because i think the dance doesnt match the rhythm of the song BUT i cant complain more after seeing micky's muscles in the vid LOLLLLLL

thanks to my friend zehra @ crunchyroll

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Apr 5, 2008

**sorry this is not meant for everyone to understand so i can't translate this to english.. im crying right now and i have to write what i feel for me to feel better

gusto lng ko muhilak kay naglagot ko. mao lng. unsahon nako pagtudlo ani na gisip-on ko, dili pa jud ko kahinga.

EDIT: im feeling better now. after all, it's the tutor-time that always makes me feel better. i used to wonder why but now i realized my "talkative-ness" always digs me out of the emo/depression state. i saw pictures on friendster of my friends being in other countries. it made me jealous. i wish i was given that same fair chance too. my time is running out. my mind is set that i will settle down in 9 years time so that leaves me with so little time to establish my self and do whatever i want. i always wanted to work or study in another country but the time doesnt always seem right. now im more than willing to start my nosebleed job so i can move forward.

5 more minutes before i can have photoshop wheeee!

will you call me a fangirl if i told you i listened to dbsk's purple line more than 20 times tonight?

out! fangirl-ing photoshop ^___^

Apr 4, 2008

random post in the midst of the.. i dont know hehe..

im in the mall right now wheeeew so early ne?? hahaha maybe i got too excited and went to the bank so early but it's still close when i got there LOLLLLLLLLLLL

i already got my passport wheeeeee! i dont care if i look sooooo ugly in my passport pic as long as i have my passport now! i repeat I DONT CARE IF I LOOK SO UGLY IN MY PASSPORT PIC hahahaha SINGAPORE, HERE I COME! ^_______^

i just had FBS (fasting blood sugar).. dont ask me why! i dont wanna ruin my already ruined day

will be officially employed on tuesday, april 8..


so watch out for more rantings and complains about my new job. this ain't my typical job because this is what i want from the very start so you will me rant but you will never hear me give up LOLLL i'll only leave my job if i'll be going to singapore hahahaha!

Apr 2, 2008

newbie

kuya always takes my oh-so-heavy-life-problems lightly! he called few hours ago and the very excited me told him about my new job (but im yet to start so dont ask me to treat you with havaianas or pizza hut or a trip to singapore!)

me: kuya naa na gud koy work blah blah..

kuya: pila sweldo nimo dha dem?

me: mga 7k lng guro

kuya: ngek! abi nako 11k (HAHAHA KUYA DILI NA CALL CENTER AKONG TRABAHO!)

me: pero kung dili sila musugot muabsent ko ug 5days para muadto singapore, magresign ko! (trans: if they wont allow me to be absent for 5 days just to go to singapore, i will resign!)

kuya: hahaha dem, unsa diay ng trabaho nimo past time lang? or just to make friends? past time lng man guro nimo nah tapos imong tutor imong real job hahaha!(trans: hahaha are you taking that job just for your past time? or just to make friends?)

see?? i've been troubled since the time i was informed i got hired (or something like that.. i havent signed the contract yet..) and here comes my kuya..just laughing at me..

Mar 26, 2008

OHHHHHHH EMMMMMM GEEEEEEEEEEEE! OMG OMG OMG!
I'M REALLY THANKING THE LORD FOR OPENING AN OPPORTUNITY FOR ME! OMG OMG THIS IS WHAT I REALLY WANT ALL MY LIFE! ^_________^

i hope everything turns out fine.. i also hope i can handle the tasks and the pressure well.. but most of all, i do hope i can still go to singapore in may =) BUT OMG OMG! I FINALLY HAVE A JOB THAT I WANT!

Mar 25, 2008



HAPPY 21ST BIRTHDAY TO MY AMERICAN IDOL...

JASON CASTRO ^___^

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Mar 24, 2008

i have tantrums today nyaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa!

since friday, my mood wasn't normal. i get mad easily arrgggghhh maybe coz i have my period LOLLL it's a nice excuse to have tantrums, don't yah think?

after posting this, i'll make sure i'll cry loads.. so i will feel better tomorrow. i will have swollen eyes for sure! haha and im'ma try taking a picture of it LOLLLL

final interview plus hands-on on tuesday waaaaaaaaah! i'm pretty much confident i can do well in the interview but not in the hands-on part T___T that's what scares me the most. ohh well if it's for me, then it's really for me..if not, who cares? :P

tantrums tantrums! so don't mess with me!

Mar 21, 2008

holy week

a time to reflect and reassess ourselves, i suppose. to think of what we've done and what we've accomplished from what needs to be done. to assess if we've done what the lord wants of us...it ain't a typical week, that's why it's called holy week.

but i noticed now people see it more differently than they used to. people see it as a time to relax, go to the beach, picnic, go out with friends. fix broken cabinets, yell at someone for being so dumb and irresponsible.. things they think they cannot do on normal days..

maybe there's something wrong with how we practice holy week. maybe we need to reassess on the way we reassess our lives and our doings..or if we actually do.don't get me wrong. im not playing innocent here. im as guilty as most people are.

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RE-learning java yet again! haha! coz im sparing one more year to prepare for the job that i want..that means i can take any job now while i prepare. but after a year, no more excuses..or i'll die LOLLLL joke! no, let's see when i get there. MY MOST WANTED JOB, HERE I COME! ^__^

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i watched virgin snow last night. darn! there isn't something in it! just lee junki and his only-for-pretty-boy sneakers LOLLLLL he's the reason why i watched it in the first place..so i would say, if you wanna see lee junki and his oh-so-pretty-boy-face that is prettier that the lead actress, better watch it. but if not, go find something else to watch.

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JAEJOONG: KEYWORD
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credits to my friend zehra from crunchyroll hihi..

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